So hurtful

I am beautiful, not matter what they said, word can't bring me down.

So hurtful is the title of the today's topic,

I have no idea what is my way to go,

I just like stand in the middle of nowhere.

And getting so insecure... So much inside painfulness that hardly everyone can be related.

I heard this song from radio today, Christina Aguilera Beautiful.

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

Just wanna to express my inner self to someone, really trusted.

I found Shu Yuan, but it turned out like a joke,

but he is still care about me..

We are beautiful, don't you bring me down today.

Health

Carter, Prove to yourself!

You will be very healthy!

Start my exercise plan everyday, from tomorrow!

NOSE

"Don't judge and dispute my inmost truth, I was not put here for you!"

I know it is not mine to be treasure anymore,

I had a runny nose now, it feels like wanna cry.

"If I told you that I could breathe, would you reach for me?"

Ah, I hate it!

Never too far away

Really fresh after cutting off my stupid annoy flat long hair.

Started to gain some confident back, clean and smart.

I like that!

Haha,

Ahh every thing just like the normal time,

nothing change.

But I went for a Broadway show, which is kind of popular in Las Vegas!

And I got the chance to see it in DES MOINES! What a lucky time!

The award winner musical show, Lion King.

Story was exactly the same in the Lion King we watch from Disney, but just they are not cartoons.

Ok, thats all about to day,

tomorrow will be a happy day to have lunch with fellows~

"Be brave enough to love again" - Carter

FRIEND

Lalilalalilia

Classes have been started a week,

well nothing surprise and kind of boring.

My head started to think again,

and again is you, I don't know what to anticipate,

I don't even hope for anything now.

Friend is just friend, that is!

I guess that is the best solution for you and I.

After the days of tears and hurts,

I know nothing will change between you and I.

And I know you try so hard for us to be FRIEND.

Just friend and just friend..

Started to get thing busy up,

I hope I will not look back again,

look straight and ahead to achieve something new and get something better!

Carter please work hard!

Ahhhhhh, classes begin tomorrow.

Aisk, what to do, just like that,

This year, I make sure I work hard, really hard.

Do the best I can, not wasting any time anymore,

promise what I promise myself to do.

Wake up early! Sleep early~

Wohhwoohh~ I know I can do it!

What do you want from me

Adam Lambert - What do you want from me

Finally there is one song from this guy make me so obsessed,

I was singing this song for whole day.

The song is really catchy and mesmerizing.

No internet is suffering!

Totally hate the day without internet,

After today, it will be the first day for class, again is class.

Yesterday, I sprained my right hand thumb,

I just realized that thumb is so important to me.

The moment I started the car, I ouchh..

The moment I lift things, I ouch..

The moment I open the shampoo bottle cap, I ouch..

The moment I want to thumb up, and wanna say good, it just turn out saying "ouch.."

What do you want from me? What do you want from meeeeeee!

Hey slow it down... I mean you, TIME.