Be with myself in center

I had no idea what to write now,

as I am so speechless so speechless.

LadyGaga Speechless.

This is the boring-est Christmas I ever had,

I have no excitement at all and not even a single happiness.

Tomorrow I am going to a cold place,

I still do not know what the name of the place.

An old song kept in my mind after I listen to it,

Big Girls Don't Cry

I really hope I will never down again,

even it will never happen.

I still remember I love this song very much in INTI,

every single sentence of that song relates to me.

The smell on your skin linger on me now,

Probably on your flight back to your hometown,

.

.

.

Yes you can hold my hand if you want to,

cause I wanna hold yours too,

We'll be playmate and lover and share our secret world.

But

it is time for me to go home,

is getting late and dark outside,

I need to be with myseld in center,

Clarity, peace, serenity.

It is so about me...

Anyway, happy Christmas eve everyone!

A great Hollywood day,

feel like you are a super even when you are walking on the street!

I really wish to stay there if I can,

Hmm, tomorrow I will depart to San Francisco.

Another dream land

Nothing much to talk about today,

just because I am not in a very great mood,

LA......

Good night...See SF tomorrow!

Trip begin

Hmm, start...

Everything start, well we are ended,

long time ago.

California trip will be begun tomorrow,

I can't wait to reach there, but I wish to sit there in the whole road trip.

I don't really like to drive, especially in United States.

I feel very stress, not because I drive badly,

is just lives are on my hand, I responsible for anything.

Which anything can be really ANYTHING.

I will miss one thing about Des Moines,

the carefree leisure day, I wish to sit in front of laptop,

do nothing, really nothing~

Why is it so hard to say goodbye... especially to my love

I was wonder, are you still with me?

Do you still listen to the deepest of me?

What I mean is... are you still looking at my blog....

I still can't shake it off,

Sorry the frustrations got me feeling awake

and I just keep having one last thing to say

and I just wanna hold you, touch you,

feel you, be near you...

Tomorrow will be a tiring day I guess, drive is not easy.

Good night everyone.... and you...

Intuition

I really have a very great sense of intuition,

predict accurately,

weird...

I am very tired now, I mean now, 2.40am

Exams are finished but why

it is just like "very hard to say goodbye".

I need a big rest, well Saturday will be the journey of road trip

A bit nervous, I think 30 hours driving is not easy!

I think I will go to bed now! GOod luck for those who haven't done the exam,

and happy holiday~ Everyone..

My favorite genre

Once upon a time
We swore not to say goodbye
Something got a hold of us
And we changed
Then you sat alone in pride
And I sat at home and cried
How'd our fairytale just end up this way

Why is it so hard to say goodbye

Say goodbye to my love

I used to tell myself,

no matter what happened, I will never change how much I love you.

My song taste started to shift back to slow emotional, EMO song.

Again the bitch! Mariah!

But she is getting uglier and uglier now~

Fatter and fatter, wrinkles all come out, even botox can't cure the old face.

Face it, you are old!

I can't wait for a winter break,

After a few more hours, the finals will be all over!

And matter fact I think I'm moving away
Sorry the frustrations got me feeling away
And I just keep having one last thing to say
And I just want to hold you, touch you, feel you
Be near you

I'm tired of tryin to fake through
But there's nothing I can do

H A T E U

A very very slow song, sentimental, hinder of sadness,

digital pop by Mariah Carey H A T E U.

It is really nice, I wasn't that fond on that song but after awhile, it sticks on my mind just like chewing gum.

Two down, two really down, unbelievable... Silent is more than word, just unbelievable!

Three to go, soon... really soon.

HATEU, hate you, am I?

I don't know, sometimes yes.

I need to catch up my drama, and I want time to relax~

Exams please get rid of my way.

Please....

Just take it easy

If you got time to happy, you can just oblige to your own mind.

Our love is written in the star, but I don't think I see that high,

No darling, is time to take "nap", gona have my first fight later!

Happy is a day, sad is a day, emo also a day, well time moves on no matter how you choose to be.

San Francisco is getting near, really near, I am full with excitement.

But well my mind now is thinking of going there alone, meeting new people,

WhouuuHoooo.... =) I love me, I love Carter, I love CA -- California too~

I want whoever, have a very great mood like how I do~

"Just face it, I am not a marrying kind~"

Thinking of buying a Sony handycam, capture all the moments that my mind can not fit in.

I always wanted to take video with you, very sweet, travelling together, here and there.

Cities, people, scene, places, food, my face, your face, and OUR faces and get the faces real close together,

Fooling around, playing around, joy, laugh, and sweet kisses. Awww..

Haha, there are just a dream..

a dream that will never exist for me. =/

Carter is sick of love, and nobody nobody but you.